Posts Tagged ‘God’

headacheblogcarnivallogoI am late (as usual) with this month’s Blog Carnival post. I have been pondering the original title, What Keeps You Going and came up with many answers: ice, dark room, good drugs, knowing someone else understands, but all of these seemed to fall short. And then it hit me; there is no “what” that keeps me going, but a “who” (not the Horton kind).

God keeps me going, even when I want to throw in the towel. He was there when I lost my job, when I wished I had cancer instead because that would kill me, and when I had given up hope of ever feeling good again. For years I prayed that the Migraines would go away forever, but because that has not happened, I thought He wasn’t listening. So I prayed LOUDER: ARE YOU THERE? DO YOU CARE? 

Years passed without a miracle and without even an effective preventative. I was resigned to a life of pain. Where was God? I don’t know. Absent? Distant? Then I heard these words from How Firm a Foundation

Fear not, I am with thee, O be not dismayed,
For I am thy God and will still give thee aid;
I’ll strengthen and help thee, and cause thee to stand
Upheld by My righteous, omnipotent hand.

Then I realized that He was there and cared very much about my pain. So in the middle of the night with my ice pack on my head, I sing or think those words. I know He is there and will get me through the night.

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I am taking a break from Migraine Disease and shifting to “what is really important” A very close friend died yesterday of metastatic breast cancer. She almost made the 5 year remission mark when it came back. It is amazing that she was able to control the tumors for nearly 8 years. She lived to see all of her children (Aaron, Jared, and Patrick) graduate from high school. Aaron and Jared have graduated from college. Kathy lived to see Aaron and Liz get married. This is only short of amazing.

Kathy’s decline started last November with painful surgeries to keep fluid from accumulating in her lungs. I saw Kathy in July after she had had a significant turn for the worse. It was obvious that she was losing her battle. And yet, she remained cheerful. We talked about life and what had happened since we last met. And then came the $64,000 question: “How do you reconcile your condition with a loving God?” Her answer was profound: “Whatever happens, I have to believe that God is good.” It is that simple. She was not afraid to die and she knew that she would go to heaven because she knew Jesus Christ as her Saviour.

Her relationship with God was solid and as a therapist, she touched many lives, including mine. At the end, she taught me what is truly important: first, my relationship with God. When she passed into eternal life, that is all Kathy had. This is what she could take with her: Not a beautiful body, not a “6-pack”, not a beautiful home, not perfect happiness, not success, nor anything else I would think was important. The second is my relationship with others. Kathy left behind a loving husband, Ed, and three children whom she loved. This is what life boils down to: love.

“But now faith, hope, love, abide these three; but the greatest of these is love.” (I Corinthians 13:13)

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